This will be a short Blog. An honest one, too.
If you have been reading my Blog, and are pretty impressed with this guy who writes these things, don’t be. I am not someone to look up to.
It dawned on me today that I had to do something about people seeing me in a better light than what reality actually shows. Too many times, people have told me things in person that lead me to believe the attention in my life is going to me, not to Jesus. I want that to stop, right now.
I am just a man, and not a very good one, either. I am learning how to crawl in my faith, because I keep stumbling. I haven’t got it all figured out, I don’t know everything, or even most things. Like everyone else, if there is a question asked, I, too, am not always certain of the answer.
I need advice as much as the next person, and if you receive advice from me, take it with a barrel full of salt. I need Jesus as much as anyone else, and probably more. My tongue is not tamed, and I am arrogant. I can spew forth a stream of expletives that would make you wonder whether I ever knew Jesus in the first place.
This last part is the most important part. Not once, and I mean not even close, has any change in my life come through any effort of my own, not since I have known Jesus. I have tried, but ALWAYS fail. That isn’t exaggeration, that’s the truth. Every single good thing in me came about by the hand of Jesus. It didn’t come about because I was surrendered, or had great faith. It came about because I gave up, and Jesus did the work.
I fail all of the time. But you see, that’s why I love Jesus so much, because He makes me REAL. So don’t think more highly of me than what is written here. I am not being hard on myself. I know the truth, and this is it. If you want to encourage me, that is fine. But please don’t make excuses for me, I don’t need them, for I am not ashamed that I need Jesus so much. I really am not. Living the abundant life to me means being free to be real, to be me. I am always changing, but not by my hand, so if you see something in me that you think is praise worthy, then know that the praise is due to Jesus, and all I ask is that you give it to Him. Thank you very much.